I've been doing a lot of praying lately. Actually, it's been going for awhile now I feel. I was baptized and confirmed Catholic, but I don't go to church. I don't like the routine of it. Big shocker, I know. But even when I went for my friend's wedding, they had a mass and the words have changed. The responses that I had grown up with repeating every Sunday are now different and it's like, but for what purpose?
So far the new Pope seems pretty cool and creating real dialogue within the Catholic community that isn't constantly surrounded by negativity, but other than that when it comes to church I have realized, it's just not for me. Don't get me wrong though I do have faith and I definitely believe in God. More importantly, I believe in asking God for things.
Now I know what you're thinking. Oh, you're the kind of girl that just talks to God when you need something. Untrue, my friend. But if there is one thing about God, it's knowing that it's okay to ask for things, that is what you're supposed to do. Ask for things without guilt. I pray for guidance every night. It's the number one thing I ask for. I thank God every morning for a new day. That routine of prayer is more comforting for me than Mass ever was. I actually had a dream God sent me a rainbow last night. Sounds hokey, but if you focus your energy in that way you'd be surprised at the little things you start to notice.
I am more specific now when I ask God for things. I don't ask often but when I do I get exactly what I want. It's not always right away but I can always feel when the time is right to ask. Since it has been proven to work on more than one occasion I think that's what's helped my faith become stronger.
This really isn't a rally cry for church or religion or even God for that matter, but it is Sunday. It's a good day to reflect on the week behind and the week ahead. I have a lot to be thankful for and I like to give credit where credit is due.
50/50 Challenge Update: Movie #66: The Usual Suspects; Movie #67: Thor; Movie #68: The Dallas Buyers Club; Movie #69: The Best Man Holiday; Movie #70: Herblock -- Book #22: The School of Essential Ingredients by Erica Bauermeister; Book #22 1/2: The Dinner by Herman Koch (for the "it" book of the moment, it got rather dull for me, had to quit)